So...within hours of Adoneiras and I breaking up over a misunderstanding and a suicide attempt, she and Jeben fell into each other's arms.
That alone would constitute the single biggest betrayal I've ever felt, but when you add to it the fact that both of them spoke to me individually afterwards, Ado to tell me that she still loves me and wants me to be happy and Jeben to wax philosophical on the power of love...both of them knowing that what they were doing would certainly affect how I took what they were trying to tell me...
Jeben told me it was my fault. That she came to him because I never paid enough attention to her, because I gave her back gifts she'd given me, because she took my telling her we needed a break to figure things out to mean that we were done forever. He failed to mention my staying faithful to her when I was lonely and felt that she wasn't paying attention to me, that I only gave the gifts back because I felt hypocritical keeping them when all of this was going on, and...Light...now it's my fault that she misinterpreted what I said to her and filled in the blanks in the most awful way she could?
History's written by the winners and they have more friends in town than I do. I'm sure I'll come out of all of this as the awful, inattentive ex who went crazy when all she ever wanted was to be happy. Does being found guilty in the court of public opinion make it fact?
My first instinct is to get away from here, to up and run off someplace where I can just be left on my own to lick my wounds and hate everything for the rest of my life...but I promised Addie she could stay with me and that I'd help care for her while she's hurt and adjusting to life back in Stormwind. I'm already a Pariah in everyone else's eyes. I won't let myself be one in mine.
